Happy happy New Year to one and all! And I hope you had a wonderful Christmas. Our tree is being taken down as I write – it was a good festive season, perhaps not the best ever, and I’m definitely over it. I’m ready for a new year and its new challenges!
This won’t be a long post about my new year’s resolutions (or thoughts) and all that blah, it’s just going to be about one decision that I’ve finally made: I’ve resolved to halt writing Little Lewes.
There are a lot of reasons for this – they’re not that interesting so I won’t list them all. Mainly it’s about being honest with myself. I’ve continued to convince myself that it would be such a shame not to keep writing the blog because of all the hard work I’ve put in so far – and because it’s a nice way to document raising my children. But truth is it feels not only like a huge chore, but like it’s becoming another thing that takes me away from my boys – both physically and in mind. I no longer want to spend the precious time I’m with my kids taking pictures of where we are and making mental notes of facilities and opening times. I just want to live those experiences instead.
I also need me time. I have no me time (I take about one bath a year because I don’t have time in the evenings for a soak and a think) and I need to develop the habit of making it for myself – and fast. Because I feel like at several key points in each year I’ll break into pieces due to what I call ‘the overwhelm’, and it’s never good for my children, my husband or, well, me. This blog’s posts are often sewn together in the evenings and it’s time for that to stop.
So here I now am, with neither the headspace, nor the life space for Little Lewes. While I’m sad to let it go, in truth it’s something of a relief to. The site will remain live at least until March, when I’ll be asked to fork out my yearly hosting fee – if I can return it to WordPress-hosted, I’ll do that to keep it online, for myself as much as anything. And you never know, one day I may feel differently and pick up writing it again – maybe I’ll feel like that next week! It’s unlikely, but I’m not ruling it out.
I’m always super happy to receive emails and offer my thoughts on Lewes-related stuff, so do contact me through the Contact page if you want to get in touch. I’ll also keep hold of Instagram, as a sort of microblog – so do follow there if you’d like to keep updated on my thoughts on the stuff that we get up to.
Oh and before I go, I also wanted to tell you that in December the blog managed to raise – both directly and through inspiring other Lewes businesses to collect for it – over £505 for The UN Refugee Agency. I say ‘over’ because Enchanted Lewes hasn’t told me yet what the sum of its coppers collection at the event was. I’m really proud of this and think letting you know is a nice point to end on.
Other than that, all that remains for me to say is I thank you a million times for reading and supporting my little spot. I think – I know – I will miss it very much.